first self, second self

this is not a personal ad. i can't say it more plainly than that. the purpose of this blog is to provide me, its author, with a channel through which i can vent my feelings, frustrations, and adventures in the world of bondage and discipline. i probably won't be posting anything that will shake the fabric of our society's social structure, but i will be posting things that my readers can relate to. i want those who read my blog to say, "hey, i know what he means, i went through something just like that."
every blog has a purpose, and mine is no different. what i hope to achieve is the creation of a dialogue; a dialogue between me and my readers, between my readers, and most importantly, between my two selves. that's right, i have two selves. i have no scientific data to back this up (this will be a constant theme), but i can surmise there are many people out there in my position. you are gainfully employed, socially adept, and are slowly but surely carving out your piece of the American dream. who knows, maybe you even have a steady boyfriend or girlfriend? almost everything in your life fits perfectly into our social norms and everyone you meet thinks of you as a generally happy person who has a lot of things going for you. this would be considered your "first self". little do they know your deep, dark secret. something so appalling that if they were to ever find out, they would seriously question your friendship. something so terrible that they would stop calling you on the phone and start calling you "weird". what could this terrible secret be? you like bondage. i know, bondage is a scary thing and you must have something seriously wrong with you if you are into that kind of stuff (sarcasm will also be a prominent theme in my blog). so what do you do? you keep it a secret. you don't want anyone knowing you like to be tied up. thus, your "second self" is born.
throughout this blog, i will try and explain my second self and how i am trying my best to bring my two selves together. so read on if so desire and follow me through all of my kinky (but true!) life experiences...